Hell is not knowing
Having no hand stretched out
No one waiting
Hell is being lost
Hell is crying to no purpose
Hell is desperation
It is dead ends and no ends
It is being full of anger and
                 not knowing why

It is being afraid
Afraid of … .
Afraid of nothingness, purposelessness
Afraid of deception
Afraid of being completely wrong.

Afraid of the inner journey
Just gets emptier and emptier
Afraid of the outer
Only further to go
To where?

I want to believe
but can’t by wanting.
I don’t want anything from you
Only to know that you are there